dy : i’m in love with you…

Q : i might not feel exactly the same way…
its like…

profound affection…

believed it or not,
500 days of summer ( the movie ), somehow reflects 60%
of what is going on with my love life right now…

and i guessed, it is safe to say,
i pretty much enjoyed watching the movie…

and NO!…
its not a love story…

summer : Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

McKenzie : You’re a dude! She’s a dude!!! [ to tom ]

tom : Ok, but wait – wait. What happens, if you fall in love?
[ she scoffs ]
tom : what?

summer : you don’t believe that, do you?

tom : it’s love. it’s not Santa Claus

a little bit more from you…

hey!..
i guessed, i do have to admit,
i have another channel of rants,
where i feel rather safe…

because for once,
i hate to rant it here, for offending ‘certain’ people..
i guessed its wise to channel it at another safe,and secret place…

on other news,
i learned a new word.

GAYCHES!…

its like, bitches, but because when someone is gay,
they are labeled as gayches…

its like, when a girl is being too bloody bitchy,
we call her a bitch…
so when a gay guy behaves like one,
they call him a gayches… or issit gachy?!?!…

i dunno.
i was bored, and i entertained myself through reading,
and watching youtube.

you will be amazed to find loads of interesting articles,
and bloggers / youtubers out there!…

absolutely, in love!!!…

and i do believed, you’ll be mesmerised by them!…

murdered…

yes… the news has it, that we have our own yet another singapore made,
porn star who was brutally murdered by her boyfriend.
apparently, she was beaten and suffocated!…

surprisingly, her boyfriend is a former preacher!!…
* shocking *

so you see…
most of the time when you watched porn, gentlemen…

you’ll be surprised that our small little country has plenty of ‘talents’…
you won’t know some Asian girls in the ‘art kinda movie’,
can be one of our owns…

im sure there’s gonna be a whole lot of searching in the internet,
about Felicia’s work and pictures…
its funny that only when someone dies, people began to dig so many things about one’s past.

oh ya..
who’s annabel chong again?!?!?…

humans can be selfish creatures.
in life, at times you have too be selfish, in order to survive.

have i ever been selfish?
i guessed… but, i will never act selfish, just for my personal gain.

to me, that’s way right low.
and for those who are selfish for their own personal gains,what an ass!…

you can think of a hundred excuses and explanation for your selfish acts,
but people will know in the end,
that whatever you do, is just for your personal gains.

when kids are selfish and won’t share their toys,
its because they are kids and they should be excuse.
but if you are an effing adult,
and you only think about yourself,
that’s a huge shame!..

such ugly behavior!

you can be selfish all you want,
but you will never know when you will need someone’s help in the future…

my new love…

shiseido products!!!…

relatively expensive… but works wonders!!!
hearts!!!..

interesting phone conversation with my gal pal,
julz…

” gurl, hows your raya prep? “
” ok dear… nothing fancy…
everything use finger and point.. ” – julz
* confused *
” huh ? used fingers and point???… “

” yar la… you head down to geylang.
see any those ready to eat cookies in those containers…
you used your finger to point..
kak, i want that one, this one also and those over there!!!..
and when you see any baju raya that looks HAWT..,
just point…
BANG, i want to try that red color baju raya…
simple dear!… just use finger and point!
no need to bake and go tailor your own baju raya… “

o.O

you know, its always a turn on for straight guys to see two hot girls making out.
as in, 2 STRAIGHT girls kissing!!!…

click on the pic ( above ) to see xiaxue kissing an FHM babe, kay kay…
i’ve seen a couple of my straight girl friends kissing, tongue with one another…
no big deal.

but,

do straight girls find straight guys kissing each other as a turn on?!?!?…
or a major turn off?…
i did ask a few of my female friends,
and they said,
they don’t really get high or excited,
but they don’t get turn off…

really?…

but, so far, i’ve never see two straight guys kissing and swaping their tongues before.

there are many things in life, that i would honestly say…
we took for granted…
and for that, i had come to my senses that,
you should always cherish those who are close,
and dearest to you…

its been a roller coaster 7 months that i’ve dated qi qi…
i won’t say it has been a blast..
we do have our ups and downs,
the twisted tales, and sour moments…

but,

what had kept us going, i believed,
is the ability to cherish each other…
knowing at the end of the day,
we still be able to see each other,
and knowing that we are still dating,
getting to know each other better as days go by.

though we could flaunt our love to the public,
we had chosen, otherwise.
we shared our life stories, and our small little struggles,
to those who are dearest and those we care…

during our dating period,
we had lost a few friends along the way,
had our mini arguments,
those little tears, but in the end,
its those laughter and huge smiles,
that goes along the way…

i know for some,
all they could ever wish for, was that,
both of us were never together.
yes. we do get negative feedback from people around us.

but then again,
it only proves that we are still together because we care for each other.

though its only been 7 months,
but i always feel a new discovery everytime we meet…
you’ve been my light,
my pillar,
and my strength for the past few weeks.

for that,
i sincerely would like to say,
thank you.

we have a weakness for food and dining!
our favorite past time is eating!…

so much angst right now!….
omg!!… fasting or not, i still feel the angst!..
to find out a friend actually bitch about me,
when i thought we are FRIENDS,
is like,
WAY NOT cool!!!…

i guessed, what sam said is true…
he said, and i quote…
” friends don bitch about one another…
if you start bitching, you guys are no longer friends… “

and yes!… i believed it ever so true!!!

OMG!..
i cannot believed what i heard!…
BITCH!!!…
the anger was like boiling point!…
and sam had to hear me bitching and firing away…
it was like WORD vomit!…

i mean,
come on!… and here i thought we are close!!…
CLOSE MY FOOT!…
you actually bitch abt me behind my BACK!!…
and of cos you do lah…
where got people bitch infront of people one!!

friends don bitch abt one another!
since we are no longer friends,
I AM ALLOWED to do so…
smelly PIG!!!…

GROSS!!…

someone actually wrote or tag or something like,
today’s date is very special,
because it comes once in a lifetime,
and i went, totally…. o_O

like hello?!?!… 070707 also comes once.
and so does 080808…
ko, otak mati sial!!!…

but then again, i thought i would do something productive today.

apparently,
just like the norm.
nothing!
surf internet, watch tv.
and soon break my fast…

there goes 090909!
a special day that happened, once in a lifetime!!!…
GONE liddat!!!!…

like, a major WHATEVER!!…

reading up on radial nerve injury associated with humerus #.
that is what im experiencing on my Right hand..

i’m so scared, can? http://www.wheelessonline.com/ortho/radial_nerve_palsy_following_frx_of_the_humerus

the above is a good read!!…

though, i don usually get bothered with people facebook status,
but recently, as i’m staying at home and my pc is switch on,
24 – 7 kind,
there are a few in my contacts that i found
effing irritating to the max when it comes to updating their status…

nah. it does not kill me to read them or what so ever,
but i do feel irritated!..

especially this particular air steward…
he’s flying budget by the way…

” im flying off to macau now… “
” just came back frm thailand.. “
” no rest, still have to fly off to taiwan, now!! “

like, who fuck cares where you are flying off to man!
i don’t!

effing lame!…
cannot stand it!..

one of my personal blog account was somehow deleted!!!…
apparently, i had posted some “adult content”, and its a NO NO!
so bloody piss, can?…

i had all of my dates and events surrounding me and qiqi,
and now, its all gone!

and NO…
there was no adult content between me and Qi Qi….

not that i can remember!
luckily its the fasting month.
i had so much vulgarities in mind…
you knw how much effort i had on that blog?

now its gone!…
stupid multiply didn’t even bother to give warning before they decided to delete my account!
and no!
there was no back up.
never even thought i should!!!….

so upset!